Monday, July 13, 2009
today i realised, it's not that i'm immune to the feelings regarding my family matters. i was just suppressing it all along. it's like the feelings are placed in a small fragile box in my heart most of the time. hidden yet not forgetten. but when a needle pricks the box, emo-ness gets into me.
this was how i felt today, or rather from this moment onwards.
even listening to a 'high' song can make me cry.
to be honest, i've been very envious of my friends all along. because everybody have something which i don't have. and that is a happy and healthy family. *at least not as bad as mine*
if i could turn back time and restart my life, i really wish that i can change everything. not my friends, but my family.
this was how i felt today, or rather from this moment onwards.
even listening to a 'high' song can make me cry.
to be honest, i've been very envious of my friends all along. because everybody have something which i don't have. and that is a happy and healthy family. *at least not as bad as mine*
if i could turn back time and restart my life, i really wish that i can change everything. not my friends, but my family.
what we could have been, 5:45 PM.
